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June 3rd 2007 @ 1:05] |
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"Bahhh...." says Frank.
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Heather ^_^
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[Wednesday,
May 30th 2007 @ 1:41] |
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WOW...look..it's Live Journal! Anyhoe! I was randomly checking all my accounts for my *blogs* (livejouranl, xanga, etc.) and I realised how much I have actaully changed...for example...
I don't feel like listing anything, takes too long. I've actually matured, a little, thought--lost a few friends that needed loosing and found others on the way--
I'm a SENIOR and I'll graduate in two days!!
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February 4th 2007 @ 8:35] |
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!~*HAPPY BIRTHDAY!*~!
So..its oober cold.
Lol.
Hmm...havn't seen this thing in forever.
Rawr.
Lifes grand.
Sometimes? Lol.
And it's not really anyones birthday.
Unless I honestly forgot and it really is...in that case.. OH WELL!
Randomness takes over and generally gets the best of me.
But right now, honestly, someone else is getting the best of me.
Poor kid..dosn't know what he's gotten into.
Or maybe he does? :o
Either way I still greatly love him.
So..there's still 3 inches of snow in my yard.
Someone needs to sing a song with me.
But noone's here.
So noone can sing with me.
This depresses me.
Oh me oh my.
So..................................................................................................
How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsi pop??
The world may never know!
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Heather-Feather!
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[Monday,
October 17th 2005 @ 8:41] |
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Hmm...this is going to be boring. Right now, I'm in english with nothing to do. Were supposed to be typing stories, but I've already done that, so I have a whole class period to do nothing. So, since I havn't updated in forever, I decided to.
This weekend was...boring, needless to say. Friday we lost our game, as usual. No surprise there, right? We got beat...21 to 14. I think our football team has managed to win two games this year, instead of the usual one, as well. Hey, big step right, one more game than the year before.
So, anyways I went to work Saturday. Hmmm woorrrlkk..lol. Let's see nothing happened there that's worth mentioning and then Sunday..haha I wow made some people mad. Well, resident wise. It was pretty funny.
Anyways, Maria's son is hot. Yes, he is. His daughters really cute, as well! I mean, for a baby, I'm not that way, sorrie. :)
So, rah I'm bored. Can you tell!?!? Let's see...Jessica was on happy pills this morning. She came to school and was all *SMILEY*SMILEY*SMILEY*SMILEY and it was kinda scary. We all laughed at her. We meaning: Ember, Ashley, R.J., Joey, Katie, Sharon, Sam, and someone else, I think, I cant remember that long ago, it was about 15 minutes before now.
Okay. well since I'm boring you, I'll finish this. Audios. I'll actually post something intresting later. Buh-byes!!
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[Wednesday,
September 28th 2005 @ 9:24] |
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Saturday we went to festivals. We, the guard, the percussion, the band as a whole, made straight ones, in everything. It was awsome. There was only one other band who did that; Gainsville. Anyways, hmm Sunday I did nothing. I cleaned my room..that took forever. From like 8:00-6:30. I went to Jamies, after that. We were supposed to go to her daddies, in Atlanta, but he didn't feel like coming and getting her, so we didn't. Instead, I spent Sunday Monday and Tuesday night at her house. Monday I went and got Greg and Kim from their house. Took them home..rah..how boring. Hmm..Tuesday..I cleaned Jamies whole house, out of boredom. Apparantly, all I'm good at is cleaning, so if you need anyhting cleaned, just call me ;) lol anyways, yea. That was my SOO VERY BORING three or four or however many days, too lazy to count. I'm passinga ll my classes...cept Grimmett...what a surprise...Yucky lol. Anyhoe, be back later!!
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[Sunday,
September 11th 2005 @ 11:36] |
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I guess I'll tell you about myself.
What time are you starting this? 11:00 pm
Name? Heather *insert hated middle name here* Crow
Nicknames? Mostly...Purple or Bob.
Sex? Female
Height? 5'2
Eye color? Green, Brown, Hazel...depends
Where were you born? R. T. Jones Memorial Hospital
Number of candles on your last birthday cake? One. It was a BIG barbie candle, gratitude of Jamie, Ryan, and Chassi..I was 16.
Pets? None.
Hair color? Brown.
Piercings? Ears and...that's all :)
Town you live in? Batesville...sucks ass.
Favorite foods? Uhm..the edible kind.
Ever been to Africa? Nope.
Been toilet papering? Dur!
Love someone so much it made you cry? Yeah...who hasn't?
Been in a car accident? Nope.
Croutons or bacon bits? Taco Bell..think outside the bun.
Favorite day of the week? The one that dosn't involve you! ^_^
Favorite resturant? Peeking Gourmet...specially when we get to torture Ashleys drink...then watch her drink it.
Favorite flower? Black Rose..it's pretty..reguardless
Favorite sport to watch? FSU Football...or..that's it.
Favorite Drink? Water...or...Apple Juice..or oragne juice.
Favorite ice cream flavor? Popcicles. I don't do ice cream.
Warner Bros. or Disney? Disney.
Favorite fast food restuarant? Chick-Fil-A
Carpet color in your bedroom? light brown
How many times did you fail your Driver's Test? Never, yet. Well find out Saturday.
Whom did you get your last email from? Kistal!! Lol
Which store would you choose to max out a credit card @? I have a credit card?!
What do you do when you are bored? Uhm...Confuse and emberrass others..I'm good at that.
Most annoying thing to say to me? Anything dumb.
Bedtime? When I get sleepy and finally passout?
Favorite TV show? Dunno
Last person you went out to dinner with? The State Softball team..it was awsome.
Been out of country?: Nope
Believe in magic? Do you believe in magic?! Ohhh somethingsomethignsometing...gay song..;-)
Ford or Chevey? Which ever one is running, at the time.
What are you listening to right now? DHT- Listen To Your Heart; slow version
Have you ever failed a grade? Nope. Seems like it, though.
If you have, what grade did you fail?N/A :-)
Do you have a crush on someone? I'm not sure, anymore.
Do you have a bf/gf? Nope! I have too much fun flirting, don't I, Mat?
If so, what is their name? Fluffy! ^_^
How long have you been together? Forever and always! We will be toagher all of our days! *continues singing*
What are you wearing right now? Clothing articles! Uhm..socks, shirt, shorts, bra undershit..kk?!
Would you have sex before marriage? Yea
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? Oh yes, Mr. Blair is sooo sexy ;) *barfs* JUST KIDDING!! HELLO!! I'm NOT Denise!
Are you a virgin? What's it to you?
Do you smoke? No, gladly.
Do you drink? Occasionally.
Are you ghetto? Am I?
Are you a player? Nope. I like to play, but not a player.
What are your favorite colors? Lime Green, Black, and neon and bright colors
What is your favorite animal? Dogs
Do you have any birthmarks? Do I? Just kidding I have one on my left arm duh, and one inside my belly button.
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? Yep! My mommie didn't like me. So, she kicke dme in the ass...damn bitch.
Who do you talk to most on the phone? hmm....good question, I'll get back to this one.
Have you ever been slapped? Yeps, sure has.
Do you get online a lot? Too much.
Are you shy or outgoing? Depends my mood..If I'm REALLY hyper, then I'm pretty well much outgoing..If I'm somewhere where noone knows me and they will never see who I am, oh my shit, I'm sure as hell not shy but if I have a chance at seeing some of them agian..it just depends, really.
Do you shower? With or without others? Yes. I prefer to shower alone...except theres a few people who I would shower with...possiable a little more than that ;) ((the first person to say UGA will DIE!!))
Do you hate school? It's my sanctuary.
Do you have a social life? Does my split personalities count?
How easily do you trust people? Not very.
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? Yes
Would you ever sky dive? Yer
Do you like to dance? Nope! Ask Ashley!
Have you ever been out of state? Yes.
Do you like to travel? Sometimes. Depends whos with me.
Have you ever been expelled from school? No
Have you ever been suspended from school? Nope, I'm a good little girl! Atleast for today, I am.
Do you want to get out of your hometown? Already have..I miss it..I hate this shitty place..I wish I chould leave, not worth being here....only miss a few people fuck everyone else and everything else.
Are you spoiled? Yes
Are you a brat? Sometimes.
Have you ever been dumped? Yep..but I deserved it, so it's all good.
Have you ever gotten high? Proudly, I can say..Nope!
Do you like snapple? Yea
Do you drink a lot of water? Yer
What toothpaste do you use? Crest stuff..its red..and it comes in other colors and its in a weird bottle..you know the one im talking about.
Do you have a cell phone? Yerp
Do you have a curfew? Legally, yes.
Who do you look up to? Hmm...Josh..he's kinna tall, well taller than me, so I look up to him :p Just playing, noone imparticularly...
Are you a role model? To my nieces and newphes..yes...Zach wants to be just like me...scary..he's a little boy..and I'm a female..I wounder how this will work out..
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point? YES
What name brand do you wear the most? Hmm..Unno
What kind of jewelry do you wear? Ear rings..bracelets..thats it.
What do you want pierced? tongue and *censored* hehe!! lol jk..only one person truly gets this..lol
Do you like takin pictures? Yeps
Do you like gettin your picture taken? Hell no!
Do you have a tan? Depends..
Do you get annoyed easily? Yeah
Have you ever started a rumor? For kicks, yes.
Do you have your own phone or phone line? Yep. Both.
Do you have your own pool? Uhm I wish.
Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers
Do you have any siblings? I have....four older brothers ^_^
Have you ever been played? Yea..I allowed it to happen.
Have you ever played anyone? Nope. Hasnt this already been aksed?
Do you get along with your parents? Depends.
How do you vent your anger? I don't. I bottle it up and watch it float down the pretty little river...then the bottle explodes :)
Have you ever ran away? Yep!
Have you ever been fired from a job? No, I quit.
Do you even have a job? Yep!
Do you daydream a lot? Lol, yes.
Do you have a lot of ex's? Nope.
Do you run your mouth? Depends...lol
What do you want a tattoo of? Nothing?
What do you have a tattoo of? Nodda.
What does your ex bf/gf look like? Lol..uhm...tall..really skinny, dirty blonde hair, blue eyes, on the swim team, he had a cute little nose..short hair...really sexy. But anywaysssssssss
What does your most recent crush look like? He's purple..and he act gay..and he's a t.v. star!!
Whats her/his name? Tinki-Winki ;) (I wounder how big tinki's winki is :o JUST KIDDING!!)
Have you ever been bitched out? Dur
Are you rude? Sometimes.
What was the last compliment you recieved? From Rj..so were not going to post that.
Do you like getting dirty? Yeah, it's fun.
Are you flexiable? Depends...lol
What is your heritage? Not sure. Sadly.
What is your lucky number? 13
What does your hair look like right now? its pulled back into a ponytail, as usual.
Could you ever be a vegetarian? Possiably.
Describe your looks? Ugly.
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? Lighter.
Would you ever date someone younger than you? Yep
Would you ever date someone older than you? Yesh
When was the last time you were drunk? Never.
How many rings until you answer the phone? Two, atleast.
Have you ever been skinny dipping? Lol, maybe?
If yes, when was the last time? Lol, Maybe?
When was the last time you went on a date? Oh hell, I don't know.
Do you look more like your mother or father? Uhm..I cant honestly answre that..I don't know...
Do you cry a lot? Sometimes.
Do you ever cry to get your way? No. It's useless
What phrase do you use most when on the phone? Hello.
Are you the romantic type? Yes.
Have you ever been chased by cops? Actually, yes...JEFFS FAULT!
What do you like most about your body? Nothing.
What do you like least about your body? Everything.
When did you have your first crush? Lol Ritchie..I remember that kid...wow I threw bricks at him and stabbed him with pencils..way to show love, right?
When was the last time you threw up? This morning.
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? Brunettes.
What about cleavage? No thank you
Is your best friend a virgin? Don't think so...depends how you look at it.
Have you ever fucked someone up? Depends, how are you asking?
Have you ever been fucked up? Depends, how are you asking, once again.
What theme does your room have? Boring theme.
What size shoe do you wear? 8-8 1/2
What is your screen name on AIM? Heatheryhay, xxloveablelolxx, and the other one I use, that I dont give out, for those of you whom I dont like, I get on there, for safty.
How are you feeling right now? My stomache hurts?
When was the last time you were at a party? Hmm..my sweet 16 at jamies.
Have you ever given a lapdance? Lol, yes.
Have you ever recieved one? Yea, it was really funny.
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? Yer
What is one of your bad qualilties? My low self-esteem
What is one of your good qualilties? I try to be loyal an honest with everyone I'm involved with.
Would you marry for money? No.
What do you drive? A White 2000 Pontiac Sunfire, fully loaded. It's prettyful
Are you more of a Mommy's or Daddy's child? Ehh..Unavilable.
When was the last time you cried in school? Last year, I think.
Would you ever hook up with the same sex? No.
What kind of music do you like? Everything.
Would you ever bungee jump? Yea
What is your worst fear? Being alone..fire...darkness...your face.
Would you ever join the army? No, too fat.
Do you like cows? I love cows..I love cow tipping..I love shooting cows with paintball guns.
If you were to die today, what would you do? Be dead?
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it be? Slut.
Like to party? Not really.
Hearts or broken hearts? Hearts!
Moons or stars? Stars
Coke or pepsi? Pepsi.
Favorite scent? Cody....
Favorite band? Hmm..no clue lol
Would you ever dye your hair red? Nah.
How many languages can you speak? English of course!
What time are you finishing this? 11:33 damn took long enough!
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August 17th 2005 @ 6:25] |
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Ya know, I havn't written in this thing in forever, so I decided, what the hell, why not? So, yea!! Let's see....hmmm nothing intresting has happened....school started and thats cool...I 've got...oh hell, here's my schedule:::
1st period- Mrs. Dodd...english..icky...
2nd period- Mr. Perdue..US History...yay lol...he's an ass...
3rd period- Mrs. Grimmett...Math..
4th period- Mrs. Jones...Science..
5th period- Mr. Blackstock....another english..icky again..
6th period- Mrs. Sigman...hehe...human health/Anatomy..lol I like this class :o
7th period- BAND!! <----Guard..woot woot!
BUT ANYWAYS!!! Right now my dad is in Kansas...well probably St. Louis by now, but he's headed to Kansas, to see his mommie...she's an awsome old fart..lol....Jared's in Kansas...I miss Jared...he's so awsome...lol...anyways!! Okay, well that's about it cause I've gotta find something intresting to do now cause im bored and this thing is boring me and SHUT UP JOEY!!! Muhahaha..anyhoe audios and talk to yall later :p
XxHeatherxX
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[Thursday,
July 21st 2005 @ 2:52] |
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Okay, yesterday we played Cartersville and lost...11-0...your probably thinking "OMG, YALL SUCK!!" BUT!!!! I think we did pretty damn good myself. See, last year, Cartersville, the team we played went to the world series...they got first runner up...no if we held them with only getting 11 runs..thats pretty damn goodm to me!! But anyways, im back home and we got the paper today!! Here's what they had to say!!
All-Stars make "state"-ment
15-16 girls softball first Rabun team in state tourney
The 15-16 Rabun County All-Stars softball team has expl;ored new frontiers.
When Hart County All-Stars, the only other 15-16 girls team in District 7, had to forfeit three gams in a row due to lack of players, Rabun advanced to the state tournament in Cartersville via a bye. They became the first Rabun County Little eague team to reach that level in postseason play.
"It's like nothing I've ever seen. It's awsome," said Caitlin Woods.
the All-Stars said they were overwhelmed by the level of support and exvitment at the state tourney. They played the first of five games Saturday.
"It's awsome," said Ashler O'Shields. "Everybody is so supportive. All the teams are just so friendly, and they are so easy to get along with."
Many on the team said representing Rabun County at the state level was a huge deal for them, one that they are not taking lightly.
"I think we are doing an excellent job of representing because it's the first Rabun County team here, and then as well as we're doing," O'Shields said.
Since enterign the state tounament, Rabun's record is 1-2 as of Monday night when the All-Stars fell 12-2 against Oconee County. Rabun fell 5-3 to Washington-Wilkes on Saturday but pummeled West macon 15-2 on Sunday.
Against Oconee County, the All-Stars scored both runs in the first inning. O'Shields hit the first home run of the week. The over-the-fence smash brought in two runs.
Rabun and Oconee were close through three innings, but Oconee began to pull away, socring six runs in the fourth and two more in the fifth to end the game by mercy rule.
"You know what, they don't give up," saod Manager David Bartolomey"They are constantly up there. They fight all the way."
On Sunder, Ashley Lee put Rabun on the scoreboard with a three-run triple in the first. OI'Shields followed with another RBI to give Rabun a 4-0 lead. After West Macon scored on in the bottem of the first, Jessica Bleckley, Heather Crowe, Heather York, and Krissi Perteet chimed in with four runs in the second. O'Shields also putched a no-hitter.
Rabun added three runs in the third and four more in the fifth for a double-digit lead. Lee recorded five RBI's in the game, and O'Shields and Woods each tossed in four strikeouts from the mound. The Rabun All-Stars jumed out a 2-0 leaed in the first against Washington-Wilkes on Saturday, but their offense was not enough to handle Washington's bats. With the game tied 2-2 in the foruth, Crowe clocked in with a run-scoreding single to give Rabun a 3-2 lead. Washintgon scored two runs in the sixth and one in the seventh to finish the game.
I'm just thrilled to be here," Bartolomey said. "We are still in this thing; we're not out."
The All-Stars were scheduled to play their final two games of the tourney Tuesday and Wednesday.
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July 20th 2005 @ 5:00] |
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What's up, guys? Rah. Okay,I havn't posted in almost a month, I know. But anyways. Right now I'm in Cartersville, Ga, for the State Softball Tournaments. Currently, we are in THIRD place, but tonight, we play the team that is undefeated, which, DUH, makes them FIRST. IFFF we beat them, that puts a BIG poopie on them. We could automatically be put in first place or second. But the games not till 8:00 and it's currently 5:00. Blop..;I'm bored...Nick's dealing with people and someone being a smartass and im just bored...rah..SHUT UP JOEY..okay, I had to say that for the hell of it. I'm SUPPOSED to go take that end of the course test Friday, but I don't know if I'm going to be able to...which means I get stuck with 9th lit first semeaster for another year...that would make three..know how badly that sucks? Hmm....Pooie, I'm still bored..jsut randomly typing in my head..hey guess what?! Were chillin' a Holiday Inn!! WEEE!!! And in our room there Me, Heather Y, Ashley B, Eden, and Stephanie..rah..but sometimes we adopt Krissi to our room..its funny cause it started out just me and Heather to the room..haha..it was confusing...*phone rings* HELLO!? "is Heather there" which one? Heather! Which one? HEATHER!! WHICH ONE!?!?! gahh it was confusing but really funny in the end...rahh...wooo..pooie on a very pretty stick...but now that its got pooey on it, its a not so pretty stick, lol...rah...see how bored can someone get. Now, since I screwed my xanga up, I have to copy and paste this and put it in microsoft word, change the font color and then paste it back here and SUBMITTIS is..wow..I miss alot of people..I miss Mamie...and Mamie..and..hey you guessed it!!! I miss.....Nick! Muahahahah!! lol fooled you there for a moment didn't I? Rah..shit okay well I'm gonna go get my uniform on so we can go early and watch the younger kids play!! Audios!! Talk to you guys later!!!
XxLove ya lotsxX
XxHeatherxX
OHHH!!!!!!!! I almost forgotted!! The other day, at our pool party we threw, I threw water on Robin and she had Daivd, our coach push me in the pool..well he didnt know I was holding my phone (I know I'm around water why did I have it..bl;ah blahb lakh) well my phone brokeded so I have to go get a new one, when I get back to Raburn, lol so if oyu call me, I can't answer!!! So, if you wanna call me here and ill get back to ya...(mnuahahah noone knows the number!! :o) lol audios fuckers.
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July 5th 2005 @ 12:03] |
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Yesterday was the foruth (obviously) and it was pretty awsome. It sucked ass when I went to watch fireworks. I got to go with Ashley, which was pretty bad ass considering we got to lay in a graveyard and watch them, but her mom was a total bitch. No joke. Sorrie Ash, I love you, no doubt, but jesus that woman needs to find a better hobbie than bitch. Lol anyways!! Woot still in summer schoo...boring.. oh yea, THANKS to those who REMEMBEReD (or read my journal) to find out "Hey, heather's birthday is today?" Lol and guess what JOEY IS A LOSER WHO NEEDS TO SHUT UP (as well as I but hey its all good) ((Joey you know im kidding!!!) MUHAHAH!! Lol anyways, I've got to go breaks almost over and duuu movie time!! Ha!! rawr...damn im bored..oh well.. buh-byes
XxHeatherxX
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June 29th 2005 @ 10:37] |
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Hola!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!! YES!!! Tomorrow is Kellie's Birthday!! SHES SOO DAMN AWSOME!!! WOOT!! I'd do her anyday...JK!!! lol wow that's wrong anyways!! BLOP BLOP BLOP im a fish!
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April 28th 2005 @ 9:29] |
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Oh my goshin a!! Guess what? I have NOOO clue!! WOOT !! Hey, I've been in a particularly good mood for the past couple of days, no reason, its just rally nice to feel HAPPY and not all/....yah...die futher mocker!! woot..lol sorrie!..hay guess what?! THAT DUDE AINT MAD AT ME! WOPPIE!!!!!! I like woopie coushins thjere amusing and the go *insert fart noise here* yes yes yesss!!! PENIS! hahahahaha...school sucks but its good today. I learned how to deliver a baby today in first period and I got my phone fixed and now im in second period and guess what?!?!?!!??!!? I get to sit in the library today and do nothing, for this period. rah. hahahahaha I like cheese! not really it constapates you and makes you not go woppie..unless you think of other things when i say that, sorries. Anyhoe! Hmmmm.....what to say..no clue...dududud...Hey Alicia looks like a cheese ball...a little cheese ball..hahah nw she woundering what im typing..little does she know, its all about her!! MUAHHHHHHHH!!!! She knows how to use glue..rah..im staring at her and typing this...its funny.....hmm..she looks like a f-uped version of Horacio Guendulain (whatever!) Okay, I'm done staring at her, she said it was creepy I kept staring and her and laughing and typing and hahahha!! I feel like a llama. dududud Chassi sent me a text message! YES! I love my wife! Ha, theres a dudes mom who I like...shes cool, lol. Anyhoe! YES!!! COME ON ROBIN, TO THE BAT MOBILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
--Hev
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March 25th 2005 @ 10:08] |
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Ya know, it's really funny at how cute someone can be, when there extreamly scared. For example, my nephew. Last night, he got so scared, he was staying the night with me and when we were going to sleep, he was watching The Haunted Mansion. Well, it went off and he was asleep, so I turned off the tv and laid down. He woke me up at about 12:00 asking me to turn the tv back on so it wouldnt be dark, so I did. About 30 minutes later, I turned it back off. Well, he woke up again, and I had to turn it back on, and then I went to sleep with it on. I woke up at 6:30 this morning, for the day, and my tv was off, I dont remember turning it off but thats besides the pont. But anyways, when I got up, I couldnt move. I had a hand wrapped around my waist, a hand wrapped around my shoulder and a little kids head in my back, mumbling "don't let them get me" lol it was SOOO cute, but anyways, I love me nephew ^-^. Anyhew, I woke him up, and he made me stay in my room until he went to sleep, then he woke up and ran down stairs at about 8:30, looking for me. Yea, anyways, that was my night...joy..anyways, now I gotta go get ready to help my dad, at work. I'll be back later to update, though. C'ya, guys.
XxHugs and KissesxX
XxLove ya lotsxX
XxHeatherxX
P.S. I LOVE YOU, CELESTE!!! WOOT WOOTT!!
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Hey guys, I havn't been back in awhile, have I? Sorrie if I offended anyone on the last entry, it's just how I felt and I felt everyone deserved to know what I thought about them...So, now that we have that established, it's been bothering me, what do you think about me? I mean, it dosn't bother me if you think im a total B**** and deserve to die, understandable, but if you think I'm a crappy friend, I wanna know..Don't I deserve to know? So, my question is, for everone, even if you don't know me, what do you think about me, from what you have read or either what you know OF me? Hmm...Today is Friday...yay...This week was...intresting. All that stuff went on with me and my parents..I think we've almost got everything workd out...it's scary...we havn't fought in a week..but my mom lost her job..that sorda sucks cause she's stuck at home, but maybe now, she'll be able to understand me a little better... I don't think I'm going to the Warped Tour any more..but that's okay... Miranda, my niece, is spending the night with me, tonight...hopefully we'll find something to do, so for now, I'll got entertain her..Someone, later, remind me to tell you all about what Kelly M. Asked me...it's sorda intresting..I mean, I made her see something from another persons perspective..but anyways, I shall return, later.
XxHugs and KissesxX
XxLove you lotsxX
XxHeatherxX
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March 8th 2005 @ 6:27] |
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Wanna know what I think of you? Oh well, cause guess what, I’m telling everyone, anyways! So, here goes:
That woman I’m SUPPOSED to call my mom- I hate you so fucking much! Words cant even explain it! If you were to die tomorrow, I can honestly say, I wouldn’t give a rats ass!!!!! I hope that hurts! I really do, you fucking bitch. All you do is sit on your fat ass and bitch! I’m so fucking serious! You ALWAYS have something to complain about. You really wanna know why all your kids hate you? You’re ugly. All you do is sit on your ass and smoking literally every fucking thing under the sun and bitch! Ohhhh and when we were younger, ohhhh fuck! My god, you ran back to the biggest god damn fucking drunk, EVERY FUCKING TIME! He’s NOT a fucking father! That’s why we don’t call him dad! It’s so fucking pathetic! I mean, you’d figure after the shit he tried to pull while I was in foster care for two fucking years, which, by the way, was the best fucking part of my life, and the shit he tried to pull with “Caitlain”! I mean fuck woman! HERES YOUR FUCKING SING, YOU FAT ASS FUCKER! What more can you get?!? You always old me, the “guardian” in F.C. didn’t love me or care about me, it was all pretend. Well, them freckin pretending was a lot more than you EVER did! I guess the main reason I hate myself so damned much is because, I know, I’m somewhat like you. And ohhhh, I’ll be damned if I become ANYTHING like you! Do you have ANY idea how many times I have cut myself because I hate you soo damned much or tried to end everything, because I just wanted to get the hell out of here?!?!?!?...no, you don’t fucking pay attention..How could you? Well, on my 16th birthday, I’ll have the court order to get the hell out of here. Little do you know, I already have the papers and there in the process of being filled out! So, have a nice life, you nasty, ugly ass whore!
Ashley Ledford- Nothing bad about you, with all honesty. I’m glad you found who you are, now it’s my turn. And as for anyone else, who has a problem with Ashley’s personal life, fuckoff!! It’s her god damn decision, her life. That’s why it’s ASHLEY’S personal business/life/decisions, NOT YOURS! =)
Alex/Skyler- You are a nasty, little whore! My god, child! You are 13 years old and cant count on your fingers the amount of guys you’ve screwed! How pathetic! And STOP calling Josh! I know you, you still do! I don’t call him anymore, he doesn’t call me, were just….hell if I know what we are anymore, but leave him the hell alone..
Josh Lovett- As bad as I wish I had something bad to say about you, I don’t. For 6 years, you were the only person I could and still can confide in. Thank you, for that. You deserve better than this and I hope Lindsey, who ever that may be, give it to you. All I can give to you is an apology. I obviously still like you, for some fucked up reason and it’s killing me, with you ignoring me, and I admit that. But, hey, I’ll live, right?
Celeste- You are one of the only people who understood/understand me, although I had to admit things to you. Thank you, very much. I hope you can continue to be happy, or get happy or find happiness or you know what I mean. You’re a really sweet kid and I hope one day, you can find someone that will brighten you life and make you as happy as you are capable of making others, like myself.
Liam- You probably wont read this, but you deserve to be on here. You made me understand who I am. Thank you, greatly. You were one of two people who knew who the person behind the mask was. I wish there was something more that I could say, but I really can’t find anything. Just basically, thanks for helping me through these past few years, I don’t know where I would be, without you actually telling me all the shit you did, and even if I wouldn’t believe it, it did help. May you find someone as good as you, as well. ^-^
Sean- You’re the only one who will understand something on here, written above….you’ve been a really great help..and you deserve better, too. Thanks for putting up with me and listening to my problems, when I needed to spill them, and thanks for being able to deal with me and my “fetishes” lol. ANYHOE! Just, thanks, greatly, Mr. Sean. You’re a really good person…WITH a life…unlike loads of people, like me, for example :p.
IFF you think you deserve to be on here, let me know and I shall tell you, what I REALLY think of you, let me know. Good or bad, I’ll be honest, weather you want me to or not. Have a nice day, you weirdo’s.
XxHugs and KissesxX
XxLove ya lotsxX
XxHeatherxX
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March 2nd 2005 @ 10:11] |
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Hey guys, sorrie I havn’t updated. I’ve sorda been busy. Tuesday the 22nd it was Josh’s, Cody’s Allison’s and Will’s birthday. So, happy belated, to you guys. We hjad a band concert too…we sucked, though. Medlin isn’t even taking us to festivals. The concert was from 7:00-8:00 and I had practice from 7:00-9:30, so right after the concert, I went straight to practice. I have to catch again, this year….joy. Well, I ACTUALLY started working on Friday. I work on Saturdays and Sundays from 6:45-3:00. I was surprised my mom let me. But, then again, I didn’t ask her. I just filled out the application without her knowing. I work at Mountain View Nursing Home. Laugh if you want, but I make $11.50 an hours, so fuck you. My mom asked what I wanted for my birthday yesterday and I Told her four ’05 Warped Tour tickets. Since that’s all I want, I’ll more than likely get it. So far, I’m planning on taking: Eli Denny, Jamie Parker, Ryan Smith, Myself and perhaps Shawn Smith (no relation to Ryan, it’s Jamie’s boyfriend). Hmm….In math I got ….I dunno, weird and just wrote down some words that make me happy....here they are…: Music, Slipknot, Ashley, Being parentless, Energy drinks, Jamie, thoughts, self-inflection, being alone, blood, killing, death, Josh..sometimes, Razors, cold chills, knives, forks, and self-mutilation. I don’t expect a majority of you to understand any of that. You think I need help? Oh well….Get over it. I’m tired of keeping shit bottled up…it’s finally coming out, so bite me. You either like me for who I am, are hate me. I don’t give a rats ass, anymore. Got it? Good ANYHOE!
I hate school sooo much, but I would rather be there than home. Well, today, at school, Ryan came and got me out of class. After their (his and Jamie) lunch ended, I went to the office to get back to class. After I got back to class, Abe accused me of doing crap with him. Oh well, I wasn’t. Then, I walked up to April and she was all “Took you long enough! Sheesh I thought you would have been done quicker than that! Have fun? God Jamie’s rubbing off on you.” And just kept on. I FIANALLY convinced her we weren’t doing nothing. I went to put on some chapstick..and since its like a vanilla thing, it’ll make your lips white. Well, I wasn’t sure if they were still white, and I wanted to make sure it was rubbed in, so I walked back up to her and asked “Are my lips white?” I wasn’t thinking on those terms, for once. She was, though. That idiot took it the wrong way, of course and was all “Bull shit!I knew you were like Jamie!” Oh well, I don’t care if she believe me or not, so fuck it. I know we didn’t do nothing so screw her. Anyways, I’m threw. Bye.
XxHugs and KissesxX
XxLove ya LotsxX
XxHeatherxX
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[Tuesday,
February 15th 2005 @ 10:05] |
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Wow..I just got home...joy. Today..today was the day after valentines day...it sucked too...I was sorda hyper this morning and had the Oscar Mayer Wiener song in my head, along with the rain drop song from Barney there too...we got to the nursing home and I did my two periods there and went back to school. 3rd..blair..I got to math...guess what, we had homework. Did heather do it? No. What is heather making in there? A 55. We got our tests back today..for him..I made a 64..pfft..like I care anymore...well I didnt in the first place, but still. He was goin over them, and because I wont bend my papers, I took the staple out of it..I wasnt paying attention..and I...jabbed it into my finger and watched it bleed...made me feel better, but wasnt intentional. After that, it sorda....made my day better...dunno, just...anyways, Cabe..failed a test for her..making a 89 in her class...Huskins...making a 94, watched a movie/texted people. Lunch..nothing great.. Stubby...didn't pay attention there, either... (making a 26 in her class!) went to band...didnt listen to Medlin, played wrong notes, the usual. Going home...boring...as always.
Got off the bus at my brothers, April was there (sister-in-law) and she asked if I could watch Miranda, Kayla, and Zach. Sure, noting better to do. She had to go get stuff from the court house (a will, nothing bad) She called and said she wouldnt be back till later and asked if I could make supper...sure..Brian got home at about....7:30. April called again. Apparently, She got "depressed" about the will, so Mimi came and got her...they went and got drunk...but she dosnt drink! (where have I heard that before) Brian asked if I could watch the kids...sure...I was there from 5:30-10:00. Made them supper, cleaned the house, broke up fights, watned to kill Zach, watched some Austin Powers (they picked it), made them brush their teeth, and sent them to bed at 9:00. That was my day..nothing good...nothing bad..everything just...blah...well there was ONE good thing...or atleast the highlight of my day, can you guess what it was? Nope, you idiot, your worng. Bored, nothing to do, talking to Andy, watching SOMEONE ignore me...oh well...fuck it. Fuck them. Fuck everything!
-Hev
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Hey guys..I'm still lost as ever, but V-day really blew. I mean, it started out good...then I woke up. Me and my mom got in a fight, as usual, first thing so I didnt go to Jamies this morning, I rode the bus. I didn't talk and stupid Terry kept turning around poking me and asking what was wrong. Why is it that if I'm quiet everyone thinks somethings wrong?! Sheesh. Maybe I just dont feel like talking, maybe I need to apply myself and think, considering I never do. Anyways, we got to school and everthing was okay. I just couldnt smile. I walked into the band/chorus thingy and Sarver was sitting there, about to cry. I sat down and talked to him about Ash. and then she came in. She looked at me and said hey, looked at him, then walked into the bathroom. I glanced at Sarver and he saw it and said "that hurt..." then I chased Ashley. We talked then she went out there to where he was and they talked, and I left them be. The rest of the day sucked. Everyone I saw was just so....happy...it disgusted me... I just wanted to leave this place so damn badly...and never return...right now I feel as if i just wanna go to sleep, and never wake up, or someone would just put me out of my misery...without kidding about it..an "old friend" and I were talkinga bout music and right as i sent him a message, he sorda flipped. I mean, he said he was listning to a song and it had just started. It had been playing for about...30 seconds and started thinking "wow..this reminds me of heather" and then I messaged him. Anyways, that was pointles...Concrete Angle...anyone know that song?..didn't think so. Anyways, I'mma go upstairs and...think...heh..I'll ttyl..c'ya..
-hev
p.s. hope you valtines day was better than mine..
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February 7th 2005 @ 9:37] |
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First of all:::::::::::WARNING:::::::JOEY, LONG ENTRY!::::::
^k?
Hey guys....I havn't posted in awhile. I'm so confused....I don't know what to do anymore, but I can't take it anymore. I don't know what's wrong. As everone knows, I seriously hate people who are fake adn can't be themselves (posers) yet.....I'm the biggets one I know (other than Ember). I mean, I'm so fucking fake! I can't stand me anymore and I don't see how anyone else could either. I'm always pertending to be happy...but I'm not....I don't expect you to understand this, your probably thinking "Heather, It's just a phase, It'll all blow over and It'll be okay"...but the thing is... I don't know if your right or not...I'm not sure if it's gonna be that easy..
There's only been 3 people who have been able to tell me who I really am:
Elizabetha (beth)- My ex-bestfriend
Ashley Jane- My best friend as of right now (hopefully for ever, if nothing changes)
and Liam (undertaker, taker, asshole)..there's only a few people on here who know who he is, considering I met him in a chatroom when I was 10.
Beth was the first to tell me...I cried when she confronted me about it...Liam was second, cried then too. He got me to talk a little and he helped alot, weather he knows it or not... Last but not least, Ashley Jane, but when she told me, I held it back that time. But I cry over everything, these days...I mean, weather you wanna know this or not, for example, I was taking a shower just minute ago and my eyes started burning. I tried to get the shampoo out, only to find, there wasn't any there. In my eyer nor my hair..I hadn't used any, yet...my eyes were burning from crying...Why? I don't know. I Just sat down and cried until it got really cold, and even then, I didn't move..it was like I was in a transe...Think I'm mental yet?..heh..The really scary thing out of this all right now, I've never been so sure I'm ready to die...like I want too.....
It's funny...the only time I am slightly happy, I mean really happy, not faking it, is when I talk to h....someone, yet I can't bring myself around to talk to...h...them or when I think about them...omg, they drive me crazy...but other than that, I can't smile, I mean, honestly smile. Well...I guess I'll go for now. I don't know when I'll be back on again....I'm really tired of alot of stuff...I'll just...c'yall, and thanks for putting up with me this long. I owe some of you alot and wont ever be able to repay you...ever...goodbye.
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God, that last entry was out of line...I feel bad for typing all of that, but that's how I felt.... well, after I left the library, the bell rang, so I went back to Coach's class to get my stuff...noone owas there and I passed coach in the hall and he didn't say anthing about it. II took my stuff to my locker and Chassi, my wife, saw me and was like "Whats wrong?!" I tried to say nothing, but it didn't work. She gave me "that look" and said "Heather *insert middle name here* Crow! Tell me what's wrong now! You are SOOO bad at lying and I know there IS something wrong" and she got it out of me. She said she would of gotten mad too, and she laughed when I told her that I left. She thought that was funny. Well, She made me eat, and then the bell rang. I got my stuff and went to Mrs. Stubblefield's class (Science, 7th period) and I walked up to her desk and said "I'm requestion to be moved. I don't want to sit anywhere around Ben Ramey" and she said okay. She told me to move bhind Samantha...problem....sasmantha was a diagonally across from Ben, putting me beside him, instead of behind him. I said nope, wouldn't work and she put me behind Allison McFalls. (one seat over and back from where I was). She said to go to our lab desks and so I did. I was SOO behind on our lab so I got a microscope and tried to catch up, but it didn't work, so I went to put it up...well...after I out it up, I turned around, and there he was. I just kinna gave hime one of those evil looks that I cant do very well and he was like "Heather, I'm so sorrie, I didn't know, I didn't mean to offend you or anything..." I couldn't say anything to him..I mean, I can't hate anyone, even though I wanted to SOO badly from what he said, but I knew it was words After he said he was sorrie, he said "You know me, I say lost of things that that are stupid and I'm just joking aorund about them" I just said...It's fine..don't worry aobut it..and then walked back to my lab desk/....I tried to act like it didn't bother me, but the truth be known, it really did...but oh well..anyways, I'm gonna stop here thought.
XxHugs and KissesXx
XxLove ya lotsxX
XxHeatherxX
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